Life is Good, beautiful. We are at farm with my two lovely young kids, a very supportive, kind, loving wife. An satisfactorily understanding and loving family. A beautiful sorrounding amidsts mountains, rivers, trees, buterflies. Finances continue to be myseriously managed. No dearth of it inspite of no direct major earning from my activities. Wisdom is growing as well, some level of inner journey is on. Physically , I am doing good. Content, joy , happiness, excitement - a lot of such things are in life. And then comes the famous ...But !
But ! Something is missing. I feel tempted to do more, to be more. Why ? I don't really understand. However, the desire to be somewhere else, to reach further exists. Is it an existential desire at play ? Is it some of my deep desires in disguise ? Am I looking for fame ? Am I looking for more validation for my work through others ? Do I deeply feel unsuccessfully content ? Am I chasing a larger dream of impacting the world ? Am I trutly compassionately driven or my personal insecurities and shortcomings pushing me ?
Nevertheless, that's where I am content and yet dissatisfied. I feel a phase that is always there to make your learn is here. All has come in life for a reason, for good. This is surely no different. It's purpose and importance might only uncover with time.
Fuh , a deep breathe and the slight feel of gratitude and love emerges. God, give me strength to move out of me.
But ! Something is missing. I feel tempted to do more, to be more. Why ? I don't really understand. However, the desire to be somewhere else, to reach further exists. Is it an existential desire at play ? Is it some of my deep desires in disguise ? Am I looking for fame ? Am I looking for more validation for my work through others ? Do I deeply feel unsuccessfully content ? Am I chasing a larger dream of impacting the world ? Am I trutly compassionately driven or my personal insecurities and shortcomings pushing me ?
Nevertheless, that's where I am content and yet dissatisfied. I feel a phase that is always there to make your learn is here. All has come in life for a reason, for good. This is surely no different. It's purpose and importance might only uncover with time.
Fuh , a deep breathe and the slight feel of gratitude and love emerges. God, give me strength to move out of me.
